Fell in love for the first time

I fell in love for the first time baby the first time hurts the worst

I didn’t know it at that time but I’d become so blind under the curse

I didn’t know love could hurt like this

Falling in love with friends of friends

I didn’t know love was so complicated

I fell in love for the first time baby the first time hurts the worst

I didn’t know it at that time but I had been struck by infatuation

I didn’t know love could make me sick

I didn’t wanna sign up for this

I fell in love and that’s all there is to it

Oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

I fell in love for the first time and baby the first time

Living in the gray

I was scared of what I’d find

if I went outside

if I went outside

Of this predetermined box of mine

so I started to pry

started to pry it open

Didn’t read between the lines

I was told what was right

things were black and white only

I shouldn’t want to question why

try to think with my mind

look at the other side

I had to find out

for the sake of my sanity

There was no way out

except for out of my own way

Living in the gray

Living in the gray

To justify a set of mind

I would need to arrive

Need to arrive at one place

I was told I’d have to find it

but it was decided

already decided for me

They didn’t like the serpentine

way that my mind

way that mind was working

They wanted me to follow blindly

and fall in line

but I just couldn’t lie

I had to find out

for the sake of my sanity

There was no way out

except for out of the old place

All my life I’ve been fighting against the current

To stay right wherever they want me

Now I find solace in the surrender

As the tide takes me away

I had to find out

for the sake of my sanity

There was no way out

except for out of my own way

All my life I’ve been fighting against the current

To stay right wherever they want me

Now I find solace in the surrender

As the tide takes me away

Living in the gray

Living in the gray

Railroad (the show is the show)

I’ve been working on the railroad

All the day under the gun

A track for every scenario

An intricate production

I’ve been working on the sailboat

Every day under the sun

Going wherever the wind blows

Across the endless ocean

I’ve been trying to live my life

In the most authentic light

We all wanna silence fear

I’ve been pushed out a couple times

lost my family and lost my mind

No one wants to take a hit

The show is the show

I’ve been hiking up the mountain

‘Round the bend, over the bluff

i don’t know which way I’m goin

I just take it as it comes

I’ve been trying to live my life

In the most authentic light

We all wanna silence fear

I’ve been pushed out a couple times

lost my family and lost my mind

No one wants to take a hit

The show is the show

And it must go on

The show is the show

It goes on and on

I’m trying to believe it

Steps

Life’s not going according to my plan

I’m not sure what God’s going for

It’s not less or more than what I wanted

It’s just different all together

Can you see it?

I’m farther away from the start

I can’t believe it

I’m always taking one step forward and 2 steps back

One step forward and 2 steps back

I’m stuck in an endless intermission

Story stopped all of a sudden

I can’t see all the set pieces shifting

Silently behind the curtain

Can you see it?

I’m farther away from the start

I can’t believe it

Feels like I’m taking one step forward and 2 steps back

One step forward and 2 steps back

Maybe it’s not a straight shot

At least I’m gaining some yards

Think it’s less about the destination

And more about the way you take it

Can you see it?

I’m farther away from the start

I can’t believe it

I’m always taking one step forward and 2 steps back

One step forward and 2 steps back

Rainbows

Coming out of the prison

Of always overthinking in my mind

You held me close

I was all consumed by

The things I couldn’t control or ignore

I had to let go

I just want to be wanted

I wanna be the sparkle in a eye

I want to love and beloved

I wanna get the heart rate running high

I’ve got the rainbows in my head

Just like it always has been

My heart loves what it loves,

And it is was it is

I get so worked up by

My projections of a faux future

I cast no shadow

I Start with a small worry

And spiral it out until I become

The eye of the storm

I just want to be wanted

I wanna be the sparkle in a eye

I want to love and beloved

I wanna get the heart rate running high

I’ve got the rainbows in my head

Just like it always has been

My heart loves what it loves

And it is what it is

I’ve got the rainbows in my head

I do not fully comprehend

My heart is the world that I’m living in

Don’t keep it locked away

I’ve got the rainbows in my head

Just like it always has been

My heart loves what it loves

And it is what it is

I’ve got the rainbows in my head

I do not fully comprehend

My heart is the world that I’m living in

Life spent waiting

I don’t know what’s on the next page

I’m scared that I know just what I want

All these unspoken expectations

Fester on

They’re dying to not only be heard but understood

If they wanna leave hold the door

If they don’t reach out let em go

Let them, just let them, let them

Let them, just let them, let them

I don’t want what doesn’t want me

Love shouldn’t feel so confusing

I’m marveling at the mystery of my heart

Broken and yet still beating on and on and on

If they wanna leave hold the door

If they don’t reach out let em go

Let them, just let them, let them

Let them, just let them, let them

All my life spent waiting for you to come

All my life spent waiting just for you

All my life spent waiting for you to come

All my life spent waiting just for you

All my life spent waiting for you to come

All my life spent waiting just for you

All my life spent waiting for you to come

All my life spent waiting just for you

Best friend

I’ve been looking for a best friend, best friend

I wanna be appreciated and reciprocate it too

My best friend, best friend

Though everything is bound to change

You’ll always have me

I wanna be with you

And be the one you choose

Someone to just sit through

The ordinary stuff

I don’t wanna gaze mindlessly in the clouds

To need to know that I’m lovely

I don’t wanna watch all my dreams go half mast

That’s so sad

I’ve been looking for a best friend, best friend

I wanna be appreciated and reciprocate it too

My best friend, best friend

Though everything is bound to change

You’ll always have me

You’ll always have me

You’ll always have me

I wanna say I love you

And tell you with my arms

I wanna have and hold you

And feel it in my heart

When did we let our fear start to contain us

and insecurity taint love?

Could it be we’re just yearning for affection?

I think yes!

I’ve been looking for a best friend, best friend

I wanna be appreciated and reciprocate it too

My best friend, best friend

Though everything is bound to change

You’ll always have me

You’ll always have me

You’ll always have me

Best friend, best friend

You’ll always have me

Best friend, best friend

You’ll always have me

Much better

I’ve been starting to feel much better

After talking with my friend Xander

I was tangled inside my head

Conversation unraveled it

I make things hard

That don’t need to be hard

Shared a cigarette with Walter

He rolled it up like a prayerful offering

Drank a couple of beers with Noah

My phone was dead but my heart was open

I make things hard

That don’t need to be hard

I take things wrong

For no reason at all

I don’t wanna go back

Don’t wanna go back

To the way things were

Flirtin’ with that guy from Athens

Sending DMs to someone’s dad

I’m the king of causing problems

The problem is I never solve ‘em

I make things hard

That don’t need to be hard

I take things wrong

For no reason at all

I don’t wanna go back

Don’t wanna go back

To the way things were

I been stuck on this track

Been stuck on this track

For way too long

For way too long

Sort this out

I sent a signal outward

An invitation for deeper meaning

I heard the deafening silence

I felt it loud and clear

I said my peace and pursued it

Did everything to pick up the pieces from

The broken road between us but

I couldn’t bridge your gap

Why can’t we sort this out?

It’s killing me

Why do we scream and shout

Instead of listening

I came for reconciliation

But it wasn’t the time

Why take part in something you don’t find

A need for in your eyes

Why can’t we sort this out?

It’s killing me

Why do we scream and shout

Instead of listening

And I’ve tried to forget it

But I keep remembering the time

When you made me feel like

I’m the scourge of the earth

Undeserving of worth

Oversight in the grand design

Why?

Why can’t we sort this out?

It’s killing me

Why do we scream and shout

Instead of listening

Worship you

You ask me to worship you

With all of my life

And for all of time

You ask me to worship you

With all of my life

And for all of time

Don’t let me go

Don’t let me go

You’re the one I want

Even when I don’t know

Don’t let me go

Don’t let me go

You’re the one I want

You ask me to worship you

You ask me to worship you